in need of a little help

It'd been very hard times this year my first year sober was very hard and I'm coming up on my 5th year sober a day at a time and life has been very challenging but as dark as it gets I never want to go back to that place so I keep doing my best I really appreciate and help that I receive and am so grateful for all of you thankyou if I was ever to get a big donation my too dreams in like are to buy and sell sportscards and hobbies and to buy a mobil home fixer upper that I could call my forever home so I'm dreaming big