Help Release Petter From Chains of Depression
By contributing to this fundraiser, I will be able to get treatment through the 'Nedley Depression and Anxiety Recovery Program' located in California, USA. This is the Most Successful Treatment Program for Depression and Anxiety Available. Donations still help me, I've left it open. Though it has surpassed its goal, I did happen to miscalculate... etc. So they do still make a difference.
Hi, my name is Petter Olaf Vetne — 21 years old. Originally from Norway. I am a passionate photographer who believes there can be a brighter future ahead of me, even though I'm still a little broken on the inside. I have so much I want to give to others. Yet I struggle with keeping afloat. I struggle with 'Depression' which hijacks my thinking. It's a limiter on creativity and productivity. Fills me with negativity.
I have this great desire to work for God and give value to others. I take pleasure in knowing that what I achieve through my God-given talents and hard work benefiting others. There's a spark has recently rekindled my spirit.
But, there's that darkness within that seeks to snuff that out. My mind hinders my advancements in life. I'll just get out there and say that I hate myself to an incredibly high degree, frequently I feel that the world could be better off with me gone.
Half my life was spent struggling being detached and feeling isolated from the world and friends. Every 1-3 years, my entire surroundings changed; I lost friends while struggling to gain new ones each time we moved to a new place or I changed schools. My love tank was frequently running on low, thus I grew up having a temper. I struggled a lot with depression and darkness, and at the age of 17, diagnosed with 'Major Depressive Disorder.' That brought with it insomnia (trouble falling asleep). Inside there is part of me which doesn't desire my wellbeing. 
a visual representation of how depression sometimes feels like, it's complex. so of course, a single image couldn't describe it perfectly.
NEDLEY DEPRESSION RECOVERY PROGRAM+++
The Nedley Depression and Anxiety Recovery Program™ leaves no stone unturned in determining the exact cause and precise brain chemistry of the patient that can be reversed and fixed. Receiving the most extensive laboratory analysis with other comprehensive tests and expert evaluations of your current physical, mental/emotional health including extensive genetic/epigenetic testing. Finding out what genetic flaws I may have, and how to turn off those bad genes through nutrition, lifestyle, and cognitive approaches.
This 10-day intensive program is the most comprehensive treatment program for depression and anxiety available in the United States. Participants travel all across the nation and world to attend this program and receive the quickest and most remarkable results. This program has treated victims of trauma, abuse, attempted suicide, PTSD, OCD, self-mutilation, social phobias, panic disorder, bipolar disorder, addiction disorders, and the severest forms of both depression and/or anxiety.
Comprehensive physician exams and evaluations, including extensive blood analysis and other revealing tests. In addition, at least two counselors/therapists will work with me individually and in groups to help your brain become the best it can be.
what is included in the program:
▪ Consultations with a medical doctor and certified counselors
▪ Comprehensive health history review
▪ Full laboratory services
▪ Hydrotherapy
▪ Massage treatments
▪ Cognitive Behavioral Therapy
▪ Spiritual congruence therapy
▪ Daily interactive presentations
▪ Aerobic conditioning
▪ Flexibility training
▪ Delicious healthy meals,
in addition, I will have access to:
▪ Peaceful hiking trails
▪ Exercise facilities
▪ Sauna
Dr. Nedley is an award-winning practicing physician who has presented and published numerous scientific studies in the medical/scientific literature and is well known as a public speaker and teacher throughout the world. He is the author of Proof Positive, Depression—the Way Out, The Lost Art of Thinking, and Optimize Your Brain.
Additionally, Dr. Nedley is a board-certified Internal Medicine specialist with an emphasis on the difficult-to-diagnose patient, gastroenterology, and mental health. He enjoys hiking in nature with his family, piloting his aircraft, snow skiing, and listening to sacred and classical music. Nothing is as enjoyable to Dr. Nedley, however, as helping people from the depths of depression and anxiety to the pinnacle of success and fulfillment.
The campaign goal is 81.800 kr.
The funds will be used in the following ways:
－ Depression Recovery Program itself (73.000,-)
－ Plane Tickets Round Trip (est. 7.000,-)
－ Ground Transportation (1.200,-)
－ Lodging 1-2 nights* (600,-)
*to recover from jetlag before the program begins. 9-hour difference between California & Norway.
The program runs from October 17-28
https://www.depressionthewayout.com | Link for Info
benefits I can expect to gain from attending:
▪ Improve your mood and outlook
▪ Gain control of your thoughts
▪ Learn how to take action now
▪ Make important life changes
▪ Enjoy more health and comfort
▪ Start and maintain an exercise routine
▪ Revitalize your lifestyle
▪ Build hope for the future
▪ Improve your spirituality and make it more practical/useful
▪ Recognize and correct distorted thoughts 
HOW IT WILL HELP+++
Recently I have gained real meaning in life — a will to serve God with the talents, which he entrusted onto me. And to accomplish his work for me in my life. I desire to use my passion for photography and media to improve the digital presence and digital resources of ministries, mission schools, and churches.
In the future, I aim towards studying Filmmaking, and learn everything from Design, Writing, and Business so I can do more for others. The more I receive, the more I can give. But, how much can I give when there's a hole in my heart and soul. A mind full of darkness cannot share positively while being authentic. I believe I will be more able to share my faith and love with others when I can love myself when I am not dragging the heavy chains of darkness. Whereas I have not been able to pull myself up by my bootstraps, I know that through this program, I will heal.
There is a hope for a better tomorrow — a life without the following: Sleep disturbances. Fatigue. Apathy. Loss of focus or concentration. Feelings of worthlessness. Deep sadness. Feelings of hopelessness. Agitation. Difficulty in functioning. Lack of interest and motivation. Insomnia. Oversleeping. Difficulty in making good decisions. Relationship problems. Feelings of being on edge. Feelings of panic. Social anxiety. Obsessions and compulsions. Brain fog.
For a long time, I thought there to be no hope for me. Still, my faith in myself is quite low. But God has a plan for me, and I stand to believe it certainly does not include living with such a dark and corrupted mind, limited by depression. It may not happen right away, and it may not happen the way I expect it to. But I'm somewhat certain it will happen. "Money is not everything, but everything requires money." And my financial state is not sufficient for going through with this at the moment. Truth be told, I'm struggling in various areas regarding this.
MY STORY +++
Let's go back in time to when I was around 13yo, my family moved to Mexico. I had begun attending the middle-school for about half a year before quitting. My classmates were a bunch of morally corrupt, mischievous delinquents of whose actions I desired not to take part. The teacher had permitted me to sleep. However, reading books was not allowed. During classes, I learned very little. Soon after I left. My brother followed as he experienced similarly.
So being that unmotivated younger self that I was. Very little homework got done as I was supposed to be homeschooling myself, somehow. I was friendless and without education for the three whole years leading up to Highschool. When the time came to decide which HS, I chose to follow my father's footsteps and go to Tyrifjord VGS located in Norway. The only Seventh-day Adventist Highschool in Norway. They accepted me without questioning my academic competence. Which was definitely lacking. But I had remembered enough Norwegian from fourth grade.
The school began, my first real education since 7th grade. It took some time forming any meaningful relationships with others like my ability to socialize was rather non-existent. I regrettably withdrew from the others' approaches. I was often staying in my room, alone.
Over time it became worse and worse. In the second year, the therapist diagnosed me with 'Major Depressive Disorder'. She could not figure out the reason for this. (I later found out it was because of not enough love from childhood and onwards). Thoughts of worthlessness and self-loathing kept me awake during the nights. There are times where I fell asleep with tears sliding down my face because I felt hopeless and that I was a complete failure.
My mind weighed heavily with the darkness. I began to escape my dark thoughts through movies & TV shows, videogames, and photography. I struggled to keep up with my studies. It became overwhelming to the point of where I could no longer focus outside and then later inside of class with the dark emotions flooding through me. I often thought to myself "the world would be better off without me," "I waste every opportunity given to me," "why can't I be such a good friend like ___?"
These were the three darkest years of my life — loneliness, depression, anxiety, and detached from the world and others. But my story does not end there. Luckily I was introduced to a very special place that changed my life. 
THE YEAR THAT CHANGED EVERYTHING +++
I heard of a mission school from a couple of alumni's testimonies who spoke of their lives changed for the better. Being in dire need of such a change myself I dropped all other impromptu plans and applied. So it began, a whole new life ahead of me. Yet I never expected to experience such drastic changes. Everyone was so welcoming and soon we became closer than friends. We were truly a family. Both students and staff alike, we were equals. Our opinions valued and our shortcomings accepted. I now had many reasons to live and the hope of a better tomorrow.
Through their curriculum, I gained many practical skills I otherwise would have never gained through traditional schooling. My ability to serve others was increased drastically. The day before graduating I became a baptized member of the Seventh-day Adventist Church in Mysen.
While my depression and its influence lessened, my insomnia had stayed constant. It was a battle to fall asleep each night and getting up wasn't easy either. Not having a proper sleep affects me significantly, my ability to be productive was cut by -40%. Which means that I typically operate at around half what I could potentially.
Anything I regret becomes baggage that weighs me down so much that it feels like I am crawling instead of running. I still struggle with opening up to others and socializing. I feel unable to progress in life on my own, yet I am scared to ask others for help or assistance as I feel that I am somewhat a nuisance to others. A leech of sorts.   
taken during the 2 month mission trip in Honduras I participated in in spring 2018 w/ Matteson
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It's hard to explain exactly how much it affects progress. What I do know is that it can stop me right in my tracks. It takes what momentum I gained over a long period and interrupts it. I go right back into old tracks, old habits. Self-destructive behavior.
I want to get better, and there's a part of me that has a hope that things will get better. But there's also that part of me that despises everything I do. Wants me to suffer and fail. If I do try to improve, it belittles my efforts, and over time, I end up giving up before gaining back any momentum. Every little task becomes overwhelming and going forward in life with the fear of everything and no hope. Nothing seems possible anymore. When I cannot do something I've set out to do and the list grows. I feel ashamed and regret. I go around and around in circles. Ending up having closed off all possible routes and I collapse and withdraw from the world. Then I seek out anything stimulating to escape this emptiness inside of me. I lose all hope in others and God for help. I look for all the right things in the wrong places and I end up worse. And it goes around and around. In circles, like a madman. I am falling apart, in shambles. I can't sustain myself.
I do not know-how. And I don't know how to reach out to others and ask for help. I don't know how to maintain my sanity while being overwhelmed with various jibber jabber. How can this work out? How can I get a job, and what about furthering my education? Do I have to go into a lot more debt to do so? How can I afford this, this thing or even live? Am I even worth it? Feels like I can't even afford living due to the lack of my societal functioning as a human bean.
I can't seem to pace myself. It's all or nothing, you go do the best thing until you can't anymore or you don't do it at all. My perfectionism hinders the amount of progress I can attain over a certain period. I'm struggling with not sleeping, with feelings of loneliness while unable to connect properly, with not having completed certain things like an exam. And I am going through multiple burnouts a year with my attention so divided I am seemingly getting nowhere. My hope for the future is slim. I'm certain it will be better in a decade. But, I have so little confidence in the present.
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Answers To Plausible Questions You May Have:
֍ What is Depression? CLICK HERE (a video for those who wish to learn more)
֍ How Will This Change My Life? I can give more back into the world and to others. Being in higher spirits does wonders for productivity and charity and released from my destructive self.
֍ How Can I Help? To help get the word out, you can share the link to your Facebook Timeline! Email friends who you think should see it. Every donation makes a difference. Big-or-small.
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reach out to the Nedley™ Health Solutions yourself by calling them: +1 [phone redacted] to make a donation in my name."
/// For dere nordmenn som har Vipps kan dere bruke mitt personlig nr: (+47) 952-78-861
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Thank You, in advance — Petter ☺