For the love of Jerry

I was married to this wonderful man for 52 years and what a life we had. I don't know how I can have a life without him. People may not have remembered his name but the face, the smile they remember that. He always provided well but like so many of us we did not set aside as we should have. Take a lesson from us old fogies and save so your widow or widower will not have to go on go fund me. I have never asked another for help and am embarrassed now. I  did not know that social security  would ask for this last month benefit check back and it was spend on rent and bills. Where will I get the money to pay it back and the rent and this months bills. I'm sorry to request this, he would be so embarrassed if he knew this and I would not want his memory or legacy to be tarnished. He was not only my love but my life. How do I live life without him.  We had 2 children who predeceased us  and I know it will be a grand reunion for them. There will be the pay-back, the hospital, the bills and rent and groceries and I will need funds by the first of the month. He was so proud when at 74 he went back to work and they provided insurance. Although I know now that $10 or $20 thousand is not enough to meet these expenses, he was proud that he was providing this for me. I would be so grateful if you could spare some money towards this. I would  take care of what you give and see it is dispensed  honorably in paying these bills in his name. Thank you for your consideration.