Starting Over

I can't live in the situation I am in anymore - always feeling hopeless and alone. Everyone wants me to be independent, but with my mental health struggles, it's harder than they think - especially in a place where I feel as though no one actually cares about me. It seems as though when I am out on my own, I can accomplish so much more. I am so much stronger and happier alone. I am less depressed and anxious. I have a better chance of surviving and doing something great with my life.

I just need a chance.

On December 30, I plan to leave. I plan to start over. I plan to have a chance to do something amazing with my life, something that will hopefully somehow give others hope for a chance too. I am going to take an Amtrak far away from where I am now and start from scratch. I am going to begin again and show the world that I CAN do something with my life. I am going to pick myself up off the ground and fight back against the world, and I am going to win for myself.

For awhile though, I will likely be homeless - without shelter, food, or a job. I just need enough money to keep myself alive until I can find work and be able to support myself.

I have wanted to start over with my life for 10 years now, and I have finally found the courage to do so. I am laying down all of my goals and plans and timelines and I am going to accomplish something. I want to help myself and I want to help other people. I know if I can get a good start, I can do this.