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It's terribly hard being a black transwoman in todays society for a number of reasons. But what's even harder is coming up with the needed finances for multiple surgeries to complete my transition.
I’m that caterpillar waiting to receive her wings. I've always knew my truth but I was too afraid to step out and LIVE & I didn't have the words to articulate what was going on when I was a child. I thought I would cause my family to hate me due to the fact that I was brought up in a very conservative, southern, black, and CATHOLIC household. They would always "correct" any sign of femininity I displayed as a child causing me to feel abnormal, unappreciated, misunderstood, "evil and confused", a disappointment, embarrased, and suicidal. I felt as though I couldnt express myself and not being myself caused me to feel the need to hide from my loved ones out of fear of the repercussions. But I knew deep down inside my gender identity was female. Turns out I was born with gender dysphoria which usually happens in the womb. In my case my reproductive organs developed as male but my brain developed more as female. I've been diagnosed and under the care of 3 medical professionals ,my primary care physician, a psychiatrist, and my endocrinologist.
Watching Pinnochio was so inspirational to me becuase I would see this puppet wish upon a star and turn into the real boy that he felt he was and that's what I wanted to happen for me. I would stand outside at night and try to find the brightest star to wish that I was born a girl. I did that religiously from the age of 5 to about 6 or 7 until I realized it was never going to happen that way. I went through so much self questioning and self esteem issues just feeling uncomfortable in my own skin in my adolescence. I was traumatically bullied in middle school which caused reservations and a social disconnection with my peers.
At the start of 2020 I finally gained the courage to step out on faith and take control over MY life. I told my entire family after being officially diagnosed with gender dysphoria that I was transitioning and to my surprise majority rejoiced and gave me abundant love and support. I was engulfed with emotion and overwhelmingly surprised /relieved. My mother told me that throughout her entire pregancy she knew I was a female and that my original name was going to be Sanaia. She had purchased so many girl clothes and had a very girly baby shower but had to take everything back when I was born. That's when I knew I was making the right decision and that Sanaia deserves her wings to fly.
After researching I saw how expensive this process was going to be and that was very saddening and discouraging. To treat my gender dysphoria I plan to have FFS, gender reassignment, fat graphing, and possibly breast augmentation but with my current profession I will not be able to afford these things. Especially with COVID19 going on, I am afraid I will never be able to transition and that will hurt me so bad especially after gaining the strength to tell my family.
I spoke to Dr. Zukowski and he said if I could raise money by 10/01/2021 he will keep the financial arrangement agreement. If I'm unable to the price will most likely increase. So if anyone is reading please help me achieve my goals. Anything will help. I cannot fathom any words to truly convey just how much this means to me. But I would like to thank you immensely for taking the time to even read this far.
Peace, love, and light to you and to everything you do & everyone you meet.
- Sanaia (Suh-Nya)
I’m that caterpillar waiting to receive her wings. I've always knew my truth but I was too afraid to step out and LIVE & I didn't have the words to articulate what was going on when I was a child. I thought I would cause my family to hate me due to the fact that I was brought up in a very conservative, southern, black, and CATHOLIC household. They would always "correct" any sign of femininity I displayed as a child causing me to feel abnormal, unappreciated, misunderstood, "evil and confused", a disappointment, embarrased, and suicidal. I felt as though I couldnt express myself and not being myself caused me to feel the need to hide from my loved ones out of fear of the repercussions. But I knew deep down inside my gender identity was female. Turns out I was born with gender dysphoria which usually happens in the womb. In my case my reproductive organs developed as male but my brain developed more as female. I've been diagnosed and under the care of 3 medical professionals ,my primary care physician, a psychiatrist, and my endocrinologist.
Watching Pinnochio was so inspirational to me becuase I would see this puppet wish upon a star and turn into the real boy that he felt he was and that's what I wanted to happen for me. I would stand outside at night and try to find the brightest star to wish that I was born a girl. I did that religiously from the age of 5 to about 6 or 7 until I realized it was never going to happen that way. I went through so much self questioning and self esteem issues just feeling uncomfortable in my own skin in my adolescence. I was traumatically bullied in middle school which caused reservations and a social disconnection with my peers.
At the start of 2020 I finally gained the courage to step out on faith and take control over MY life. I told my entire family after being officially diagnosed with gender dysphoria that I was transitioning and to my surprise majority rejoiced and gave me abundant love and support. I was engulfed with emotion and overwhelmingly surprised /relieved. My mother told me that throughout her entire pregancy she knew I was a female and that my original name was going to be Sanaia. She had purchased so many girl clothes and had a very girly baby shower but had to take everything back when I was born. That's when I knew I was making the right decision and that Sanaia deserves her wings to fly.
After researching I saw how expensive this process was going to be and that was very saddening and discouraging. To treat my gender dysphoria I plan to have FFS, gender reassignment, fat graphing, and possibly breast augmentation but with my current profession I will not be able to afford these things. Especially with COVID19 going on, I am afraid I will never be able to transition and that will hurt me so bad especially after gaining the strength to tell my family.
I spoke to Dr. Zukowski and he said if I could raise money by 10/01/2021 he will keep the financial arrangement agreement. If I'm unable to the price will most likely increase. So if anyone is reading please help me achieve my goals. Anything will help. I cannot fathom any words to truly convey just how much this means to me. But I would like to thank you immensely for taking the time to even read this far.
Peace, love, and light to you and to everything you do & everyone you meet.
- Sanaia (Suh-Nya)
Organizer
Sanaia Hood
Organizer
Charlotte, NC