When tragedy takes lives

This is the most difficult thing I've ever had to write and by far the most difficult thing that I've ever had to endure. Sunday morning started like any other morning in our household. My husband Jason (the only morning person in the house) was up listening to music, singing and making us one of his world famous breakfasts. When I walked into the kitchen my stomach filled with butterflies and I was grinning ear to ear because he was wearing my oh so pretty Foo Foo cupcake apron just cooking and singing away. He couldn't help but laugh when he saw how amused I was by this and he stayed confident in his manliness as I snapped a few photos. Both of us were giggling as I told him how pretty he was in my apron. He served everyone their breakfast accept himself because being the cook, his was always made last. I waited for him like I always did so that I could eat with him and as usual he told me my breakfast was getting cold just like he does every single time even though he knows I'm going to wait for him. He's always worried about it getting cold so I answered him the same way that I always do and said I love cold food! We ate breakfast together but I didn't know that was going to be the last breakfast that we ever had together. The last time I never hear him sing all chipper in the morning, the last time my son would be woken up by his Daddy with breakfast in bed and the last time my husband would give me butterflies as he looked in my eyes smiling sending love and happiness right through me. If I would have known I would have eaten slower, I would have stayed in bed with them longer instead of getting up and going about my day, but I didn't know. I didn't know that later that afternoon there would be a house fire and everyone would get out safe except for him. We lost him in the fire that day and he was burned so badly that he was unrecognizable. They wouldn't allow me to see him because of how badly he was burned. I hugged and kissed and said my goodbyes to him through a body bag. We've been together for 27 years. I was only 14 years old when we got together. 27 years of my life I was so blessed to be able to spend with him and I feel selfish saying it wasn't enough, but it wasn't. We were supposed to have so many more years together to watch our son get married, be grandparents together, laugh at each other as we get old and our bodies start to grow hair in funny places and fall apart. We've been through a lot together. The loss of both my parents, our child battling cancer at the age of five. Our love has stayed strong through all of it, he was my person. He took really good care of his family he was a hard worker had an amazing work ethic and a great sense of pride in the responsibility of taking care of his family. He was our Sole Provider and made sure we always had a roof over our heads and food in our bellies. He was my best friend, hunting partner, keeper of my heart, my protector, My Safe Haven, the father of my child, the most loving, caring, generous, funny, intelligent, most handsome man I've ever laid eyes on. He was my greatest gift from God and I'm terrified about the days ahead. I never wanted to know a life without him but here I am scared trying to navigate without him, without a home, without all the belongings he worked so hard to provide for us over the years. Although losing those belongings and our home seem like nothing compared to losing him. Right now we are staying in a hotel and eating out which is pretty spendy so we're asking for donations to help with the expenses of living in a hotel and eating out and we're trying to raise enough money to buy the Lost necessities and get into a new place of Our Own. Any donations would be greatly appreciated. I know it would hurt him deeply to know that his family was left like this and I just want to get these things taken care of not only so that we could be back in a home together but so that my love can rest in peace knowing we have a home and we're safe and cared for. Thank you all so much from the bottom of our hearts. I will keep you updated as things progress.

All Our Love And Appriciation, The Stiner Family, Mikco, Landen Jay Bird And Loki.