Looking for Mercy
This is a sorta boring story of low emotional drama and straight-up, shitty physical happenings. It's pretty lame, really. It all adds up to a 46-yr.-old woman & home-owner being in dire straits. There are likely many people WAY more worthy of financial help than I... but yet, here I am.
GoFundMe said to "tell my story", so here it is: My life partner of 5 yrs. left me abruptly in Sept. 2015. Before he snuck out, he revealed (only to me) that he had psychopathic personality disorder, but I refused to believe it. I came to learn that I was very wrong in that assessment. I learned a lot of things, since then. I guess I was in an emotionally abusive relationship for 5 years. I'm still coming to terms with that.
More Importantly: In April of 2016, I acquired a physical disabilty that rendered my dominant arm & hand, useless. (Radial nerve entrapment/paralysis). I could not tie a shoelace or feed myself, easily. I saw a chiropractor & got an MRI. All said: Yep. Nerve Junk. See a neurologist. (I could not afford to do that.)
I went out on temporary disability for 4 months from my job. I returned to work prematurely & was inable to perform, properly. The terrible paralysis condition re-occured on Thanksgiving Day of 2016. I LOST my beloved, career/job working with intellectually & physically disabled folks thru Goodwill in Dec. 2016.
My life goal is to see the needed doctors & get my arm healed so I can return to the best job I ever had. I miss my co-workers... and my former co-workers and boss miss me, too.
I am also a volunteer board member of a local cemetery & have done a lot of free physical work there, in the past. I want to get my arm working, again, so I can continue to help them.
Right now, I think I am medically covered & I am getting food stamps. I have food for me. Other than that, I am needy & my dogs and cats are needy. Food stamps/SNAP-whatever does not cover paper, cleaning, feminine hygeine products, household items, nor dog or cat food - or pet hygiene. My house is DARK because I can't afford light bulbs. I'm using wadded up old clothing rags in lieu of maxipads. Shit is getting Little House on the Prarie Ridiculous, over here!
It is exceedingly hard to pay all of my bils.
Yes, I have family. Yes, they have been helping me as much as they can. However, my mother has NUMEROUS, horrible, physical ailments (holy shit- what a list!) and my dear uncle is also strapped for cash. I am lucky to have loving family who cares - but they can't help me, financially.
If I wasn't looking at defaulting on my mortage, I would never sink this low to ask for help. But here I am. I'm asking for help. (Halp??)
EDIT: I was 'doing okay' thru the kindness of others for a good while. It is now Tuesday, June 6, 2017. I've had neurological arm surgery in April & am scheduled for physical therapy in 2 weeks (mid-June). My arm HURTS. I've run out of food stamps & have little money coming in. I find myself 'just as f*cked' or MORE F*CKED as I was when I 1st posted this. I need more health care (which may/may not be covered) but my 2 dogs and 2 cats need veterinary care, too. I suppose I also need to eat. I hate this so much . Friends have told me to update this gofundme thing. I hate it. It's begging. I hate that.