Help Bee get top surgery!

Hello, I'm Bee - a 21 year old trans student and aspiring filmmaker/camera operator. I suffer from gender dysphoria and have struggled with it ever since I hit puberty. Now, as my situation grows more dire and NHS lists have proven themselves too long to wait, I have decided to pursue top surgery privately.

Growing Up

My chest has always caused me a great deal of pain - physically and mentally.

As a child, I insisted on socialising myself as something 'non-girl' or often 'tomboy' and when I hit puberty I found myself traumatised by the experience of my body changing and losing that perceptive ambiguity.

As I got older, I found myself envious of other men and grew immensely frustrated with the way my body 'lacked' in comparison. I was deeply disturbed by the way my body moved and how it was understood by others and, from that, noticed that my ability to form meaningful relationships was hindered by being percieved as a girl/woman. Despite having a clearer understanding of myself now as someone with knowledge of what it means to be transgender, my struggle with personal relationships endures and is centric to my dysphoria.

Now

I suffer from chronic back, shoulder and neck pain due to the weight of my chest and hunched posture (so my chest is less noticable). I have always struggled with exercise as my pain increases usually lasting for some time and feeling my chest move is often upsetting enough to make me feel nauseous and depressed.

My bras leave bruises on my ribs from the weight and without one my skin aches constantly. Binding is also very uncomfortable, suffocating and most importantly inefficient.

Future

Not only does this effect my quality of life but it tarnishes my future professionally within the film and TV industry. The line of work I intend to go into requires physical fitness in order to prevent health issues such as WRMDs (work related musculoskeletal disorders) due to long hours and strenuous use of the body and if my pain and dysphoria alter my ability to keep fit, I will suffer more in the long term.

As well as this, I am aware most body camera rigging equipment is built for cisgender men which in my more extreme case may hamper my ability to be employed. Regardless of discrimination I am determined not to let my dysphoria stop me from pursuing work I am passionate about.

I intend to use your donations to help fund a life changing surgery and give myself a happier and healthier future.

Thank you for reading and for your support.