Starting Over

Hey Everyone,

I’ve never done this before so please bare with me. To begin, I’d like to say that asking for money through social media is not only a first but it is the definition of my rock bottom. I’m going to explain my situation here in as much detail as I can but I’d like to preface it by pleading, if you have ANY questions message me or call me directly. Your opinions are your own I will never look at you differently for having a different opinion. Please just don’t comment or post anything unproductive or hateful on this post. Save it for my inbox.

On November 30th, 2021 I was arrested for domestic abuse on my beautiful ex girlfriend while in our home in Ipswich. While there was no sign of struggle inside nor markings of any kind on her body(this is facts from the police report) I was still taken away based off of the accusation alone. I then spent 3 nights in Middleton Jail next to some not so awesome company! It was my first and hopefully last time being incarcerated and let me tell you, 3 days is more than enough to see the other side of humanity. I was released on terms of being able to stay with family or a friend outside of the restriction zone where the arrest happened. My best friend lives in CA, one of my closest friends lives in NH, my remaining family lives in NH, I cannot go out of state. My father, the reason I moved into that apartment complex in the first place, still lives there. That means I cannot live with my father because it is in the restriction zone. Do not get me wrong. I have AMAZING friends but even when they had the opportunity to help it would be for a day or two. We are adults, they have families, children, full time jobs they cannot have another grown man taking up space in their home. My entire life was with my little family in that complex. So now according to the state I am considered homeless. Since December 5th, 2021 I have been staying at a motel in Ipswich. The rate is $139 a night. After about a week I spoke with the manager to get it closer to about $89 since I did not see myself leaving anytime soon and I was simply losing money faster than I could make it. I was making $100-150 a day at work, lucky me! Just enough to secure a roof day by day and grab some essentials for daily living. Mid-December I finally got a police escort to the complex to get my belongings(for the most part). $275 forced to be paid to IPD to simply get my things. Christmas Eve I was let go from my job. Bottom line is my legal situation was not helping my security at work and there were many personal factors leading up to it. Since then, I HAVE BEEN working, truly scraping together every penny to continue to pay for this roof over my head. I do have an EBT card so that has been a god send! Hot meals are tough to come by but again I have some amazing people in my life that think about that on a weekly basis. I do not want anyone reading this to think I am looking for a hand out. I need help guys. My hat is in hand and I am on my knees. I never thought life would bring me to this point but here we are. I’m officially behind on paying these bills or I would not come close to even thinking about asking. If you took the time to read this thank you so much! I’m sure I left something out but PLEASE reach out if you have any questions. Please. For those of you who know me this goes without saying but those of you that don’t, I truly am a decent respectful human being. I am a protector of women. I am a hard worker. I simply feel like I am out of options to continue to live at this point.

The “goal” I set would be for about 2-3 weeks of a bed depending on what kind of mood the owner is in that week lol but honestly every penny counts at this point. Seriously.

Thank you so much everyone. From the bottom of what’s left in my heart.

-Benny