Fighting Brain cancer

Hi there my Name Courtney and this has been my past 2 years ... 2 years ago i was at my happiest i found a man that  made me feel like a princess life was great everything was fantastic  had a great job first rental together Richard proposed and we started to plan a wedding a future and we didnt think nothing bad can happen because life was great to  Richard and me  till we got some bad news Richard was diagnosed with stage 4 brain cancer on 16th of August 2014  i just finished work and Richard picked me up from work like usual and but this he was crying i was worried and thats when he told me we didn't  we where what we in for but this is how its been so far ... It all started with a mole on Richard a head hes had it since birth had it checked often and doctors werent concerned then Richard got a hair cut for our first date on the 4th of march 2014..things where exciting  Richard and i had been talking for weeks and finally got to meet the hairdresser cut open Richards mole and we both didnt think anything of it over the next months it started to grow it was very large (size of a mashroom at this stage) it was fine doctors where okay with it werent worried so we left it and just kept an eye on it over the months Richard started experience constant migraines and it turned into rotten flesh which didnt smell the greatest bit like rotten chicken after being turn away from doctors and hospitals and lots of hassels we finally got some tests going for Richard. His first operation was on 25th July 2015 which they removed the mole and did some tests and results came back and Richard  was told that the mole was cancer but not to worry as they got it all .  Afew weeks later Richards health got worse and he started to have seizures so Richard ended up at  Sir charles Gardiner hospital and was  diagnosed  with a brain tumour stage 4 melenoma that was missed by Royal perth hospital and they could of been prevent all of the problems Richard and i where about to face Sir charles hospital werent to impressed . Richard is courageously fighting this hideous disease and not know what what lies a head im just his misses and i feel useless because i love this man and i cant help him .  After he was diagnosed Richard has had the  aggressive tumor removed 5 times which kept growing back within weeks after surgery which really upset Richard .  After 5 craniotomies the doctors decided that it was to dangerous to go back in a operate again and  they started  some treatment which is  13 treatments of radio .Now months of treament ,mri's,ct scans .vomiting ,shitting losing hair and everything else i quit my job to be Richards full time carer necause Richard required new treatment as the cancer is not getting any better the radio and cancer table helped a bit it made the tumor go down from 30cm to 15 which was good.   Richard and i where excited because we thought yay things are starting to get better till we had Richard next check up appointment we got told that Richards brain tumor now traveled to his lungs after we had multiple hospital appointments ..being rushed to emergency    They insisted on the new treatment kertuda  with the new treatment we both hoping it  helps   kill the cancer in his lungs and hopefully help with the melenoma in his brain . Iam having to keep strong not just for Richard bit for Kailey (Richards daughter but i love her like my own ) He has been through so much through this past  2 years and having to learn how to walk 4 times and pick himself up slowly learn how to live with cancer but he still keeps a smile on his face which is  absolutely is amazing even on his worst days he still trys and keeps positive by taking it day by day hoping for the best. There are some days where he just sits there and crys because he is so scared because he has changed so much from a man who can do anything he wanted he was fearless ..ruthless a concreter for 12 years to now having to walk with a walking stick to never being to work again losing everything he worked for  To not knowing what each day is going to bring its so hard seeing the person you love slowly fade away over these past 2 years 11 months Richard and i have had our fair share of ups ..downs crys laughs even tho there are days where i thing fuck me i would never give up on this man i love him so much and i cant wait to be his wife . I cant imagine my life without this man  Trust me Richard has told me many times to leave and i dont deserve this life ..pushing me away ..but like i tell me everyday iam not going anywhere ..  All the tables ...pain meds ...seizures. ..him falling over all the time ..vomiting. .shitty times ..hospital appointments ....scaring the shit outta me ...everything..i still love him and will forever So there that a bit of my past 2 years I wouldto be able to help Richard out more i just dont no where to start ...