I lost my baby to hydrops

I had MyAngel at 29 weeks,she weighed almost 4 pounds.everyday was a fight,on the last day she gave me hope when the doctors called us & told us to hurry to the hospital, they were doing Cpr &they were trying to keep us alive until we get to the hospital. When we got there her heart rate was descending. It was at a 30 when they needed it to be over 100.they stopped the Cpr as soon as we arrived. Just as they were footprint in her & dressing her for her last picture. Her heart rate went back up & she took breaths on her own.the doctor was so shocked he said. "YOU saw it was at 30 right? I pushing on her chest for 45 mins,gave her adrenaline ¬hing happened.It was a miracle. She had a perfect 150 heartbeat.hrs went by her heart rate was steady.i was calling everyone I knew,I even posted the miracle in my hydrops support group.they were ecstatic!! Then the inevitable happened she started to rapidly descend.it was hard to watch.i sat blank tryna figure out what was happening &then she was gone.my heart was broken in little pieces.to add insult to injury the college that I wanted to take her body for research to help other hydrops babies wouldn't take her body because of her weight.so now I'm stuck with making the tough decision to bury or have her cremated & I have no income & I have 5 other lil girls to tell that their baby sister that they were so excited about didn't make it.please help me put MyAngel to rest.