Help me Fight Depression
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Hello everyone, My name is Jordan Graves. I'm 22 years old and I currently live in Bloomington, IN. I went to Indiana University Bloomington to graduate with a degree in Computer Science. However Chronic Depression and Anxiety had something else in store for me.
Last year around January was when this disease first took a strong foothold in my life. And later because of this I was forced into a situation where I needed to withdraw from classes. Then recently my life turned down a path I never thought I would be in. I was in the emergency room for the Indiana University Bloomington Hospital because of a suicide attempt that I had made earlier in the day. I was then admitted into the psychiatric ward where I stayed for a few days and learned that my condition is progressively getting worse and worse. The day that I was discharged I was told about an out patient program here in bloomington that is meant to help people like me who have depression and anxiety issues. I tried to go there and pay for the first session before going to it and my insurance was revoked. Apparently my father had recently lost his job and because of this he lost his insurance. So because of this I am currently unable to pay for the amount that they are asking from me.
I remember the day that I went home to my mother's house and told her that I have depression and she couldn't believe the words that were coming out of my mouth. She said that she always knew me as a positive and energetic kid, who always looked at the best in others. And sadly as time goes on I feel that part of me dying and being pushed away by something much more empty and depressing. Instead of waking up with an energetic feeling and ready to go out and do what makes me happy, I now wake up with a feeling of dread and despair. I feel as though I no longer matter to anyone and don't deserve a place on this earth when many others are more deserving.
I know that 5,000$ is alot of money to be asking for, and I know that i'm a complete stranger to all of you, but if you have ever known anyone with depression and anxiety then you can hopefully understand what i'm currently going through and how hard it is to live day by day with so many suicidal thoughts running around in your head. I'm asking because I have no other options. My family is a low income family and has never been in a good financial standing. So I would appreciate any amount, whether it's 1$ or more, I really appreciate any amount that can be given. I know that with your help, that I'll be able to go to this treatment and show my mother that I can return to that happy and energetic kid she once knew.
Last year around January was when this disease first took a strong foothold in my life. And later because of this I was forced into a situation where I needed to withdraw from classes. Then recently my life turned down a path I never thought I would be in. I was in the emergency room for the Indiana University Bloomington Hospital because of a suicide attempt that I had made earlier in the day. I was then admitted into the psychiatric ward where I stayed for a few days and learned that my condition is progressively getting worse and worse. The day that I was discharged I was told about an out patient program here in bloomington that is meant to help people like me who have depression and anxiety issues. I tried to go there and pay for the first session before going to it and my insurance was revoked. Apparently my father had recently lost his job and because of this he lost his insurance. So because of this I am currently unable to pay for the amount that they are asking from me.
I remember the day that I went home to my mother's house and told her that I have depression and she couldn't believe the words that were coming out of my mouth. She said that she always knew me as a positive and energetic kid, who always looked at the best in others. And sadly as time goes on I feel that part of me dying and being pushed away by something much more empty and depressing. Instead of waking up with an energetic feeling and ready to go out and do what makes me happy, I now wake up with a feeling of dread and despair. I feel as though I no longer matter to anyone and don't deserve a place on this earth when many others are more deserving.
I know that 5,000$ is alot of money to be asking for, and I know that i'm a complete stranger to all of you, but if you have ever known anyone with depression and anxiety then you can hopefully understand what i'm currently going through and how hard it is to live day by day with so many suicidal thoughts running around in your head. I'm asking because I have no other options. My family is a low income family and has never been in a good financial standing. So I would appreciate any amount, whether it's 1$ or more, I really appreciate any amount that can be given. I know that with your help, that I'll be able to go to this treatment and show my mother that I can return to that happy and energetic kid she once knew.
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Jordan Graves
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Bloomington, IN