Jesse's new, sober beginning

I ended 2018 with a failed suicide attempt... While in the hospital i was feeling hopeless and i just didnt want to live anymore because i was tired of trying and trying and still never having anything and struggling. I was in the hospital for 7 days and it gave me alot of time to reflect on my past. Im trying to make changes in my life so i can live my life in a way thats pleasing to God. Ive made alot of changes and progress but there was still one thing i couldnt seem to stop doing and has caused me much unneeded sorrow and pain and humiliation. While in the hospital i told the Dr. i have a drinking problem and i need to abstain from alcohol completely. So he put me on a medicine that helps alcoholics quit drinking. I havent had a drop since. I feel like a new man and im determined to make 2019 the best year ever. But simply put i need help.... I have a trade skill, welding. And i see jobs all over the place that need welders and i cant pursue them because of lack of transportation. I lost the job i did have unfairly and im literally at rock bottom... again... Me and my mom stay together and we are struggling to pay the bills. I know someone who has a good running vehicle he would sell me for 800 bucks. If i could get a vehicle it would be a major stepping stone for me to get a decent job and would change my life. Im not the type of person that likes to ask people for anything but i need help...simply put i need a little help in life right now, i think everybody experiences that need at some point in their life. I guess im setting this thing up with the hopes some people out there can find it in their hearts to help me out a little... Anything helps.... God bless *update*  Just incase anybody was wondering how i was getting to work before, i was working at the same place as my mom and riding together with her. She has a 40 year old truck that needs alot of work and i dont think it could make it to tampa and back without something breaking on it. When i find a job, unless its in plant city, im going to have to have my own transportation to get there. Im just adding this update cause im sure there will be people reading this that dont know me and might question the validity of my story. Theres no bus system where i live either. Just wanting people to understand the dilemma im in and that im doing everything i can to help myself at the same time.