Northern Ireland Cuddle Cot
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Angel Wings Mum and Forever Dressed in Love Ireland Manager Eilish Telford is fundraising for a SNUGGLE MAT along with Angel Wings Baby and Child Loss.
Eilish has already fundraised for a Cuddle Cot in memory of daughter Cara.
A Snuggle Mat is for the use of a passed away baby from 3 month old to young adult. This will be Angel Wings 2nd Mat.
Here's Eilish own words...
When we found out we were having another baby we were excited and freaking out at the same time! We have 3 girls already, but each pregnancy is such a roller coaster for me. I have never had a straightforward pregnancy. But this one was yet the hardest one. I was so tired and weak all the time, i was also diagnosed with hyperemesis gravidarum (extreme morning sickness) so i end up in hospital a few times with dehydration. Once i was there for nearly a week. I also had a few infections. In the middle of april i got a really bad infection in particular, i had fever and wealness topped with the usual sickness. My doctor gave me really strong antibiotics and put me on bedrest. Which wasnt going to happen as i have a toddler, a baby and a child in primary school. The infection clared after 10 days, and all went back to what was my normal pregnancy (as in being sick non stop).
On the 6th of may 2017 our wee baby girl was born sleeping... going to a normal midwife appointment and seeing the panic in ur midwife (that she is trying to hide).. sending you to hospital to get checked.. waiting for ages to be seen, to be told "theres no heartbeat" was absolutely demolishing! Going back a few days later to confirm that and start the process of labour was hard... getting the forms to filled was so heartbreaking!
The whole process is really hard and emotional to say the least.. and its a very lonely one! There is a big taboo regarding stillbirths and late miscarriage (i dont agree callin it like this but it is what it is).. there isnt much clear information regarding this either which makes it harder and confusing... having to make decisions about a postmortem, a funeral, and all the other decisions when your mind is numb with pain... having to take the pill that you know is gonna bring labour... giving birth to your baby and all u can hear is a deafening silence...
The nurses were amazing. After Cara was born, at 17 weeks, they took her to weight her and clean her up a bit and then brought her back so i could see her and spend some time with her. Millie, the nurse looking after me, arranged for a priest to come over and give Cara a wee blessing. She also let me spent as much time as i wanted/needed with my wee Cara. Unfortunately there was only one cuddle cot, and a stillborn baby was born the same day so i wasnt able to have Cara with me as long as i wanted. But millie kept bringing Cara every so often (she had to be taken back to kept cool so she wouldnt decompose, specially for the post mortem).
The next day we came home, empty handed for the first time after having a baby. Cara was sent for her post mortem and a few days later i got a call that her tiny body was back. We arrange a small service before cremation, were it was just my partner, our girls and i.
The pain doesnt go away, every day I think of all the things she could have been, i see my girls playing and it breaks me that they never got to play with her. But i know shes watching for us, and i know one day we will all be together again.
Please help us provide this by making whatever donation possible thank you x
Eilish has already fundraised for a Cuddle Cot in memory of daughter Cara.
A Snuggle Mat is for the use of a passed away baby from 3 month old to young adult. This will be Angel Wings 2nd Mat.
Here's Eilish own words...
When we found out we were having another baby we were excited and freaking out at the same time! We have 3 girls already, but each pregnancy is such a roller coaster for me. I have never had a straightforward pregnancy. But this one was yet the hardest one. I was so tired and weak all the time, i was also diagnosed with hyperemesis gravidarum (extreme morning sickness) so i end up in hospital a few times with dehydration. Once i was there for nearly a week. I also had a few infections. In the middle of april i got a really bad infection in particular, i had fever and wealness topped with the usual sickness. My doctor gave me really strong antibiotics and put me on bedrest. Which wasnt going to happen as i have a toddler, a baby and a child in primary school. The infection clared after 10 days, and all went back to what was my normal pregnancy (as in being sick non stop).
On the 6th of may 2017 our wee baby girl was born sleeping... going to a normal midwife appointment and seeing the panic in ur midwife (that she is trying to hide).. sending you to hospital to get checked.. waiting for ages to be seen, to be told "theres no heartbeat" was absolutely demolishing! Going back a few days later to confirm that and start the process of labour was hard... getting the forms to filled was so heartbreaking!
The whole process is really hard and emotional to say the least.. and its a very lonely one! There is a big taboo regarding stillbirths and late miscarriage (i dont agree callin it like this but it is what it is).. there isnt much clear information regarding this either which makes it harder and confusing... having to make decisions about a postmortem, a funeral, and all the other decisions when your mind is numb with pain... having to take the pill that you know is gonna bring labour... giving birth to your baby and all u can hear is a deafening silence...
The nurses were amazing. After Cara was born, at 17 weeks, they took her to weight her and clean her up a bit and then brought her back so i could see her and spend some time with her. Millie, the nurse looking after me, arranged for a priest to come over and give Cara a wee blessing. She also let me spent as much time as i wanted/needed with my wee Cara. Unfortunately there was only one cuddle cot, and a stillborn baby was born the same day so i wasnt able to have Cara with me as long as i wanted. But millie kept bringing Cara every so often (she had to be taken back to kept cool so she wouldnt decompose, specially for the post mortem).
The next day we came home, empty handed for the first time after having a baby. Cara was sent for her post mortem and a few days later i got a call that her tiny body was back. We arrange a small service before cremation, were it was just my partner, our girls and i.
The pain doesnt go away, every day I think of all the things she could have been, i see my girls playing and it breaks me that they never got to play with her. But i know shes watching for us, and i know one day we will all be together again.
Please help us provide this by making whatever donation possible thank you x
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