Move Mountains for Josh Quesada

UPDATE: At 11:34am in the morning on June 18th my love (Joshua Quesada) opened his eyes from a coma and I witnessed, with my own eyes, him see the GLORY of heaven and he took one last deep and shuddering breath here on earth and then he flew high to heaven. His heart stopped immediately and he was gone. I was holding his face and the kids were around his bed all telling him they loved him. And I covered his face with kisses. There has been so many tears but more love than anything and more relief that he is no longer suffering. He looked absolutely beautiful. We kept him with us until about 9pm. He was blanketed in love and light and kisses. I decided to step out for his final moments when they took his body’s away. But as always I gave my children a choice about what they wanted to do. Jak and Sam stayed with him while the funeral home loaded him onto the gurney, wrapped his body in a quilt and he was so cozy and then they drove him away. My children are the bravest people I’ve ever met. Josh is so proud of them. Finally. His journey is all the way done. No more pain. No longer struggling for each breaath. He is free. He can SING again!! And Jude and Warren are with him now and he has SO much to tell them. ********************************************** These two years since Josh was diagnosed with Satge 4 colon cancer have gone by in a flash. So many surgeries and rounds of chemo and heart ache. And here we are. In February the Seattle doctors said Josh has maybe 6 months to live without treatment. Six. Months. News like that is such a burden because it could be less....and it could be more. Either way I guarantee you it will make you never want to sleep because it feels like wasting time. You will measure every touch. Kiss. Laugh. Trying to record it all to memory. Oh and you’ll actually try to record everything. Pictures. Video. audio. Until you have to tell yourself there will never be ENOUGH video or pictures to make this ok. But hoping desperately there is enough for little Luci so she never forgets his voice and so she can see how much he loved to snuggle her and make her laugh. We are finding incredible sweet spots as a family even still. I hate to say my Love is dying because he will die only once and so much sooner than we can bear. But more than that he LIVES, he lives everyday. Thank you for the way you continue to wrap us up with love. May you never have to hold your grieving children and feel them break in your arms or have to answer your 3 yo asking why daddy has to die, I don’t want daddy to die. But if you do ever do I pray your community holds you like this and know I will be there too. #Qmunitystrong