Rip Rogers Raw Deal

Here I am 60+ years old with a kid on the way to College.  A broken down vehicle and struggling to make ends meet.  Spent my life in a profession (Wrestling) I Loved but only reward was seeing others succeed as I never got the respect I deserved.  Maybe I was too talented, maybe I was too cocky or maybe I just dont f...Ing know.  All I do know is that I deserved better because I put my heart and soul into it.  I have a wife who is still with me even after all the terrible things I put her through while I was trying to live the dream.  So much sadness I put her through, which are too horrendous to detail here, but men we know what we sometimes do to the ones we love; Foolishness!
Help is what I need, a major windfall is what I want but a miracle is what am looking for.  What is worse than a man who has to beg and borrow to take care of his family.  Relying on the compassion of others but feel completely degraded and less of a man for all his failures.  Many of you know what am talking about.  Trying to keep it together teaching others the profession I love and watching as they grow and succeed and knowing the thrill of success they are feeling.  I dont mind sharing the wisdom and I love seeing all I touch succeed in living the dream.  There's nothing like it!  
If you are so inclined even as little as$1.00 will warrant overwhelming gratitude from me.  Too late for me to do much else now but hope, humble myself and ask for compassion.

Thank you sincerely.