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Over the past month and a bit I have painstakingly spent a lot of my time narrowing 100 main events in my life down to 10. I have always wanted to write a book. People have always told me I should write a book. There is some dark history in my life, things that I have lived through that only my nearest and dearest know of. I don't say this with any suicidal tendencies but I don't plan/expect to live past 30. I live a fast life. I spend most of my time making poor acts of judgement.
After sharing my stories with people they have told me that it would be a real shame that if my life story goes untold. I am not talking about the things people know already about (nearly losing my foot to a spider bite or being held up and robbed by federales in central America). I want to share deeper parts of my present and past. I am just 1 person. But maybe (without giving too much away) my stories of living with addiction, abuse, psychological torment as a child, my fight against many a failed suicide attempt and living with PTSD, Panic disorder and depression. People can relate to these stories. These stories won't shock you as they are stories that we all have faced or have had a loved one face at some stage of their lives.
I am a self confessed weirdo, loner and a hard guy to live with. People can agree. I want to share my Biography for when I finally bite the bullet people will of had a better insight into the struggles I have faced over the last 24 years. I have seen some truly horrible things and have had equally horrible things happen to me. When I go I don't want these events to go with me to the grave. I want them shared amongst people. Because people will be able to relate and find some comfort in knowing that someone else went through the very same hardship and that there is a reason as to why I am the way I am.
Narrowing down the over 100 topics in my life. I have created a list of 10 chapter's. Each chapter will shock you. Each chapter will surprise you and each chapter will change your opinion on me. These are the darker times of my life. Brainstorming each chapter I found myself at times in tears reliving memories and horrors. But also found myself at times laughing at some of the funnier sides to my life.
I am a surfer. I have made my name through surfing and being a voice for LGBT people in our sport. But this biography hardly touches on any of those subjects. These are old and boring things that people already know of me. I want to share with you the untold stories. The stories only 2 or 3 people I have confided with in my life. But sure there will be some first encounters with my sexuality (especially the one in Gisborne. The lads I travelled New Zealand know and will tell you it is as fucked up as it is hilarious).
I will also share with you my passion for surfing but how I have unfortunately fallen out with my best friend (the ocean) due to mental health issues. But keep trying to regain my lust for the sea. But each of these 10 chapter's are not your typical surfer biography where they talk about partying, doing drugs and getting arrested. This will be something more than that. This is more of a Biography for people who have never seen the ocean or know what a surfboard is. I am at a stage of my life that I think I am ready to tell you all what really goes on in my head and what I have lived through without sugarcoating it.
I am going to preserve everyone's anonymity who are included in this biography (if they want to remain anonymous. But even better if they don't). I have a lot of work to do to bring something that will grip you tight. I want to show you my life. I am not looking for sympathy in any shape or form but I want to give people a better understanding of who I am and why I am the way I am.
When I say I am going to be putting a lot of work into this I truly mean it. I plan on hiring a private investigator and plan on painfully confronting a person (who's identity only 3 people know of) and interviewing him about his wrong doing. And trying to figure a solution as to how we will continue forward.
Publishing a book, promoting it, investigators, taking up to the next 6 months out of my life to lay the groundwork before putting it all together bringing you something that will leave you stunned. Expenses for researchers and a device to type on. (Which once the book is published will be sold on and the money given to a charity of people's choosing).
Now this is the part that I absolutely hate. The money pledged to help me get the darker side of my life out there you will be FULLY REFUNDED when the book makes back the money pledged. Also everyone who pledges a minimum of €20 will receive a free signed copy of the biography. MONEY FULLY REFUNDED (once sales hit the target).
There is a bad side to the life I live that only a handful of people know about. That I thought I would never share with people. But I think it is finally time. We have all problems and hardship. Some People can relate to my struggles and others will be in total disbelief as to what I have seen and how I am still somewhat mentally functioning and alive. I cannot speak for the woman who raised me, but it always breaks my heart when new drama arises in our ex-family home (that me and she had to leave because it started to take a major toll on our health) and she gets pulled back into the chaos that she so desperately is trying to escape.The money I make from my biography after paying it back to pledgers, I plan on buying her a villa in the canary islands. To think of what I have lived through for the past 24 years with my family, she has lived for 50! I could get into it, but the wait will be worth it.
As an atheist I still hope that there is an afterlife. I hope that I haven't been too much of a dickhead on earth to experience it's peacefulness and euphoria ❤
Please share this. I need to get my story out there. People I have come to know on the road and told them the slimmed down versions of events in my life have urged me to share these stories to the world.
After sharing my stories with people they have told me that it would be a real shame that if my life story goes untold. I am not talking about the things people know already about (nearly losing my foot to a spider bite or being held up and robbed by federales in central America). I want to share deeper parts of my present and past. I am just 1 person. But maybe (without giving too much away) my stories of living with addiction, abuse, psychological torment as a child, my fight against many a failed suicide attempt and living with PTSD, Panic disorder and depression. People can relate to these stories. These stories won't shock you as they are stories that we all have faced or have had a loved one face at some stage of their lives.
I am a self confessed weirdo, loner and a hard guy to live with. People can agree. I want to share my Biography for when I finally bite the bullet people will of had a better insight into the struggles I have faced over the last 24 years. I have seen some truly horrible things and have had equally horrible things happen to me. When I go I don't want these events to go with me to the grave. I want them shared amongst people. Because people will be able to relate and find some comfort in knowing that someone else went through the very same hardship and that there is a reason as to why I am the way I am.
Narrowing down the over 100 topics in my life. I have created a list of 10 chapter's. Each chapter will shock you. Each chapter will surprise you and each chapter will change your opinion on me. These are the darker times of my life. Brainstorming each chapter I found myself at times in tears reliving memories and horrors. But also found myself at times laughing at some of the funnier sides to my life.
I am a surfer. I have made my name through surfing and being a voice for LGBT people in our sport. But this biography hardly touches on any of those subjects. These are old and boring things that people already know of me. I want to share with you the untold stories. The stories only 2 or 3 people I have confided with in my life. But sure there will be some first encounters with my sexuality (especially the one in Gisborne. The lads I travelled New Zealand know and will tell you it is as fucked up as it is hilarious).
I will also share with you my passion for surfing but how I have unfortunately fallen out with my best friend (the ocean) due to mental health issues. But keep trying to regain my lust for the sea. But each of these 10 chapter's are not your typical surfer biography where they talk about partying, doing drugs and getting arrested. This will be something more than that. This is more of a Biography for people who have never seen the ocean or know what a surfboard is. I am at a stage of my life that I think I am ready to tell you all what really goes on in my head and what I have lived through without sugarcoating it.
I am going to preserve everyone's anonymity who are included in this biography (if they want to remain anonymous. But even better if they don't). I have a lot of work to do to bring something that will grip you tight. I want to show you my life. I am not looking for sympathy in any shape or form but I want to give people a better understanding of who I am and why I am the way I am.
When I say I am going to be putting a lot of work into this I truly mean it. I plan on hiring a private investigator and plan on painfully confronting a person (who's identity only 3 people know of) and interviewing him about his wrong doing. And trying to figure a solution as to how we will continue forward.
Publishing a book, promoting it, investigators, taking up to the next 6 months out of my life to lay the groundwork before putting it all together bringing you something that will leave you stunned. Expenses for researchers and a device to type on. (Which once the book is published will be sold on and the money given to a charity of people's choosing).
Now this is the part that I absolutely hate. The money pledged to help me get the darker side of my life out there you will be FULLY REFUNDED when the book makes back the money pledged. Also everyone who pledges a minimum of €20 will receive a free signed copy of the biography. MONEY FULLY REFUNDED (once sales hit the target).
There is a bad side to the life I live that only a handful of people know about. That I thought I would never share with people. But I think it is finally time. We have all problems and hardship. Some People can relate to my struggles and others will be in total disbelief as to what I have seen and how I am still somewhat mentally functioning and alive. I cannot speak for the woman who raised me, but it always breaks my heart when new drama arises in our ex-family home (that me and she had to leave because it started to take a major toll on our health) and she gets pulled back into the chaos that she so desperately is trying to escape.The money I make from my biography after paying it back to pledgers, I plan on buying her a villa in the canary islands. To think of what I have lived through for the past 24 years with my family, she has lived for 50! I could get into it, but the wait will be worth it.
As an atheist I still hope that there is an afterlife. I hope that I haven't been too much of a dickhead on earth to experience it's peacefulness and euphoria ❤
Please share this. I need to get my story out there. People I have come to know on the road and told them the slimmed down versions of events in my life have urged me to share these stories to the world.
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Craig Butler
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County Waterford, Waterford