In April of this year I was sitting at my desk and noticed that my left eye had just closed on its own. To a strange I looked at myself in the mirror and I was able to open it back up slowly and start working on the computer again. But then a few minutes later it did the same thing again. Over the next few days this happened more and more. I put it to the side though, because I was starting a new job in a week, I had been unemployed for a while, and I told myself that I would get it taken care of once I got going with my job. My eyes didn't get any better and eventually affected both of them to the point where it looked like I was just kind of squinting all the time. Then eventually my right eye just didn't want to open anymore on its own. And I started having almost constant double vision you can imagine what this is like considering how I got to work and back was riding the light rail and a bus and walking several blocks. This became increasingly difficult. I then begin to notice during the summer that my legs and arms just felt tired and weak all the time. My Walk going to work and coming home got more and more difficult. Going up and down stairs got more and more difficult. And it started to affect my balance. Then I started noticing problems with chewing when I was eating. Like my tongue didn't want to work things that you kind of take for granted became difficult and I had to focus on. Chewing and swallowing became something I had to focus on more and more. The thing that finally really scared me was in my job I talked on the phone and towards the end of my day my speech was slurring.
I made an appointment to go to a local clinic because at this point I did not have health insurance through my new job. So on my day off I took myself down there started checking in with the nurse and they took one look at me and said I needed to go to the ER. Walking can become difficult my balance was very off combination of fatigue in my limbs and my vision at a difficult to walk and navigate around. On a good day I had about 25% to 30% vision in my left eye. I took myself to the emergency room at Swedish Medical center and they started to examine me. Right off the bat it seems that the doctor had a familiarity with my symptoms. Things that seem so random and disconnected we're actually related. They brought in a neurologist and that was the first time I heard the autoimmune disease myasthenia gravis. It was a lot to take in, different doctors coming and asking me questions, it was a lot to take in. One of the doctor's mentioned as I was being taken off for a chest x-ray that I probably didn't have a tumor but they needed to check anyway. This was not something that I wanted to hear and added more confusion to for me. I did not have a tumor which is actually one way that my senior gravis can present itself. I had the other kind, the one that can't be fixed by removing a tumor. I spent the next 5 days in the hospital getting infusions of antibodies to try and stem the tide of what was hammering my body. I started feeling some of the symptoms were lessening. After I was released from the hospital there was issues trying to get my medication, the one that was meant to help the most with my symptoms cost merely $2,000 for a 30-day supply. Without insurance that was not going to be possible. So my symptoms returned with the pensions, flaring up, getting worse. By the end of the week I was back in the hospital for another 5 days. That time I received some incredible assistance from the people there at the hospital to help me make sure that I had my medication going forward and it would help set me up for success. I was already to return to work after I was discharged from the hospital again after another 5 days. That morning while waiting for the light rail to get to my bus to head down to the South end I stood up and went to walk to the train and pass out on the platform. I was taken to the ER and they were not able to find reason for by that it happened. A series of scary moments that was one of the most scary. I had to make the decision at that time to put my health first knowing that I would have to leave the job that I had because just the toll of getting there, working, and then getting back home. Was going to be too much for me at this time. My body wasn't capable. that's the thing about myasthenia gravis, you can't just push through, if you do that it just makes it worse and set you up before another flare or is that coming to find out another trip to the hospital.
I wanted to share my journey with this and what led me to create this page. I'm actively working for benefits, and assistance to be able to live my day today. If any of you have gone through this before you know it all takes time. I appreciate you just taking the time to read this. If you take the time and the thought to send something just know that I will be forever grateful for the opportunity that you are hoping to give me to live a quality life. While working to find my way through this. I have a treatment that is starting soon that luckily is being completely paid for by the hospital. I will send updates as this goes on. And I'm very optimistic death as well help my quality of life greatly.